For about 2 weeks, I have been feeling invincible
Like I have been high and can't process what naturally goes on in the world
Last I was reconnected with earth, Haiti had an earthquake and a terrorist was caught.
But since then, I have been drowned in my own sorrows and thoughts
I sleep when my part of the world is up and I am awake when they are asleep
The worst part however is the feeling of despair and lack of purpose.
The new year brought me new thoughts and doubts
The idea that I will be a year older, I should be a year smarter
I am beginning to reconsider every decision I have made. Love, education, and every lifestyle.
I am happy to be alive, don't get me wrong. However, I can't process the rule of living a happy life.
I am tired of paying tons of bills, school loans. Tired of making a choice, loving the wrong or the right person.
Living is risky, life demands the smarts. Quick and straight to the point answers; if not the conclusion may be a huge set back in the path to success. And I yearn for success.
I am at that cross-road. The junction between who I am and the reason the Almighty put me here.
I am yet to figure out how the rest of my years will be narrated but I am learning this new thing about faith and I am willing to 'walk by faith and not by sight.'
